This morning I headed over to the cemetary near my house to place flowers at my grandparent's columbarium. It's the first time I've visited since their urns were placed side-by-side and the marker was engraved and attached to the front. There is a bench fairly close the the columbarium and I sat down for awhile, amidst the gravestones and columns, enjoying the sunshine and thinking about how lucky I was to have John and Irene as my grandparents.
It's a bit of a walk from the entrance of the cemetary to the column, and while I was walking I was trying to figure out why I find visiting this cemetary so peaceful. I came this this conclusion: the circle of life is unstoppable - there is nothing we can do to hold death off forever - so all we can do is relax into it.
I spend so much of my life being busy, and rushing around, and trying to make all of the things I want happen right NOW. But what am I running for? Perhaps rushing allows you to have more experiences, but if you don't savour them as they happen, how can you enjoy them? Are they even worth having? Also, the faster we push on, the faster things are over, including the great experiences.
There are a lot of things I want and a lot of things I want to do, but remembering that there is only one way to get off this ferris wheel called life, I want to enjoy the time I have. I need to enjoy and appreciate and love and savour the time I get. Even if I want more things in the future (and will plan appropriately for them), I need to learn to live in the present. The future will come fast enough, and I will keep planning for it, but I'm going to work on enjoying the here and now.
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